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♥Motherly Instincts
posted on Wednesday, March 14, 2007.
I was thinking last night about the craziness when Vincent was born (7 wks early) and how he had to stay at the hospital, and how it was so hard for us to leave him each night. Mostly though, i remember how i kinda felt like he wasnt my baby, like he was just a baby that someone was going to give me, and we had to go visit him each day before we could bring him home. I mean i loved him, alot. I cried when i thought about how much it hurt to not have him home with me, and he was always on my mind. I guess it felt more like i loved him so freakin much, and he didn't care about me at all. Then one night at the hospital when he was about a week old, we were saying our good byes and our i love yous for the night before we were going to leave, i put him in his little bassinet thing and started tucking him in and he started to cry. All of a sudden i felt this feeling like a wave washing over me, and before i knew it i had Vincent in my arms and was lightly bouncing him while telling him "shhh, shhh,shh its okay shhh" in a hushed voice. He stopped crying and just layed in my arms all quiet until he fell back asleep. I think that was the moment we bonded. The moment that i think he realized how much i loved him and that i was the one that was his mommy. I am so glad i remember, and its not a memory lost.
// x0x0- callmealunatic
@ 5:02 PM.
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