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posted on Saturday, February 23, 2008.
i have'nt been posting to much. I'm about to get serious. The Daddy and i are going through a break up. yep. a break up. its pretty hard for me. not because i want to be with him, but because of the memories. I'm one of those people who hold on to memories -really tight. We use to be happy. We arnt now, but we use to be, along time ago. I'm afraid i'll forget those memories from when we were happy. The things we did together, the way we use to laugh at the same jokes... the movies we watched together or even the way we use to share drinks, I'm afraid it will all get lost. The past two weeks i have been so stressed out. My mind is racing. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm fucking scared. Ive been pissed. Hurt. Neglected. Emotionally neglected. I no longer have that companionship, it feels like i have lost a very important friend. One who doesn't care anymore. I know The Boy has noticed a change, i can tell. He has become very clingy which isn't like him. I also know this isn't going to be easy on him, but its best for all of us. I have been so worried about him, and his future. How he might feel about all of this. Even things as minor as potty training and stuff, or going out to eat. or what if he gets sick? I'll be alone. I mean, The daddy is here, and he always will be. Hes an awesome awesome dad. Seriously. But i still feel alone in everything now. The Boy and i just took a shower about an hour ago. When we got out and i got him dressed he gave me kisses, and i tickled him. He got up and walked out of the room, then he turned around and came back and stood in the doorway. Smiled, pointed at me and then almost clear as ever... he said "everything is alright" with a serious look on his face. I sat there looking at him for a second and asked 'everything is going to be alright?' and he smiled again and turned around and walked out of the room. I told him as he was walking away 'your right everything is going to be alright'. and it will be. Labels: alright, breakup, smile
// x0x0- callmealunatic
@ 2:46 PM.
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posted on Thursday, February 21, 2008.
its soooo easy to make him laugh. i love it. Labels: laughing
// x0x0- callmealunatic
@ 12:45 AM.
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posted on Sunday, February 17, 2008.
Labels: Beach
// x0x0- callmealunatic
@ 6:32 PM.
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posted on Wednesday, February 13, 2008.
This kid... is amazing. it seems like this past month The Boy has advanced in his language and communication skills drastically. i can basically have conversations with him. He can tell me how he feels and things that he wants, and i completely understand what he's saying. its wonderful to say the least... i like this stage.... I'm sure it will only get better. Labels: amazing
// x0x0- callmealunatic
@ 9:12 PM.
♥New Milestone
posted on Tuesday, February 5, 2008.
Almost three days ago i converted The Boys bed into the toddler bed which we now call "the big boy bed". I have been putting this off for about three months now, but i just woke up the other morning and decided that it was the day, and it was. The afternoon nap time was a little hard, and the 2 hours he should have been sleeping he really slep but only maybe an hour. When night time came i decided to warn him that night night time was coming and he had to sleep in the big boy bed. We talked about it durning his bath and then watched an episode of Elmo then i reminded him again when the show was over. I put him in the bed and only had to go back once to put him back in it. He slept all night long. I am way so proud of him. I love this kid with all my heart. He woke up the next morning a happy baby, i mean... a happy big kid. Labels: bed time, big boy bed, sleep
// x0x0- callmealunatic
@ 10:36 PM.
♥The Zoo, AGAIN
And we went to the Zoo today, again. But this time it was Just the Boy and I, no one else tagging along. I had a great time with him. The weather was amazing it was about 80 degrees out, which is perfect weather as far as i am concerned. So here are the pictures. The Boy posing with the Elephant. i told him to hold on tight? and does he look like he is holding on tight? The Ant Eater was pacing as usual, he it one of my favorite animals at the zoo. The Boy thinks he can almost touch him through the glass. Also, on the 30th of last month The Boy turned 20 months old. Woo hoo. let me say this "you are growing way toooo fast." Here's the big boy crouching down to check out the huge birds walking by.
// x0x0- callmealunatic
@ 8:56 PM.
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